Losing all you know...and the monster has it

Young and innocent, you rely on what you know. You become a part of a family that you trust and desire to be close to. It is all you know. Mother feeds you, dad is there too. The smells, their faces, the laughter, the cries, the house...its all familar. They are a part of what makes you who you are. Brothers enter, you love them. They are a part of you. Fights and arguing enter the scene and dad leaves. Sadness comes, but mom and brothers remain. Across the alleyway, a best friend lives and you visit her everyday. A dinner with your family is shared everyday. Games, hide and seek, family parties, holidays. Life goes on. But, it is still a life you know. A family you are still a part of. But, what happens when one day a monster appears and changes all that you know? He takes away the innocence you had. What happens when that monster stays and you are forced to leave your family...forced to leave all that you know? What happens when the mom choses this monster and he is there for the games, the laughter, your brothers, the dinners and you are no longer there. Instead, you are a little girl, roaming around, not knowing anything around her anymore. Just yearning and yearning to be with what is familar. Hello....this is me. This was my life is short. This is still something I deal with everyday. 20 years ago...I have a peace inside loving who I have become....but, the pain of knowing he is still there...and I am not....